Greetings. I go by the name Aina. I find happiness in music, good books, foods and writing. I write what i feel. Petite and living 19 years of life. Far from perfect.
I discover my true happiness on the beautiful day of Sunday, 21st July 2013. The day he officially made me his.
Never have i expect to feel this happy, after i was badly hurt. That is what we call fate. You can never when Allah wants to reward you with something better than ever. Syukur.
It all happen unexpectedly. Everyday i wake up, i love him more and more each day. Alhamdulillah. I couldn’t be any happier. It has been only two weeks with him, but it seemed like we knew each other for years.
I’m only hoping this is my last and we would end it with something further in the future, insya Allah.
Instrumental music always give me the mood to write something so deep. I put my earphones on, and played this one particular song. So melodically. Tells one story, a story i wish to share. Indirectly.
Unexpected things happen at unexpected times.
Dreams come along with determination. Determination comes together with courage. Courage blends well with support. Support is not achievable without the people you trust. The people you trust are the people you love.
Can you see how everything is linked up?
Prediction is easily done. But you cannot achieve prediction without a goal or aim, precisely.
It comes to our senses when we’re too sick of it, we said, “i’m done with all this” “i’m sick of getting hurt”. There it goes, all the cliche lines saying all the lies. But ask your heart, go to the deepest spot of your heart, close your eyes and ask yourself, what do i really want? Do i plan all these to happen? Was it my mistake i let it all happen?
You’ll then start to cry. You’ll start blaming yourself, when you forgot that it is all fated. It is all written by Him. Then you start to question, why am i given this kind of tests? You’ll start screaming i can’t do this, it is too much. You forgot that He will not give you such test that you can’t handle.
You then try to cool yourself down. Start to think rationally and make wise decisions. You get closer to Him. The decision you made earlier (the one that you thought you regret) is starting to make sense. You then thank Him for giving you such test, for making you stronger and open your eyes to all kinds of truths. You start to raise your hand, make doa and be thankful.
This happens all the time, isn’t it?
If you can truly understand what i’m trying to say, it means you manage to connect everything i tried to convey.
Today is the last day for the month of May. Tomorrow is a new day and a new month. Perfect for a new start. We shall welcome June with new hopes, determination and goals. Insya Allah.
Have you ever wish you could just say what you want to say?
Have you ever felt like giving up?
Have you ever cried at night till you fall asleep?
Have you ever felt like giving up on someone and decide to back off when your heart does not want to?
Have you ever wish some people remains who they are and not change?
Have you ever wonder why someone changes so much?
Have you ever had a really painful headache and had a hard time sleeping because of your uncertainty?
Have you ever felt so pathetic when someone whom used to be close to you disappears in blink of an eye?
I have, to all those. It is truly painful, yes. But i know it won’t be my test when i can’t handle it. I just need to have faith. I know life does not promise me a sweet journey, but i appreciate all these pain for making me a stronger person, mentally and emotionally.
Greetings! My last post was 2 months ago. Sorry for not updating for so long because i can’t seem to open the Tumblr web page itself on my chrome and i just found out the solution. Yes, only after two months.
There’s so many things had happen in the last 2 months. I can probably say both, happiness and sadness. What’s life without challenge isn’t it?
Talking about challenge, i recently joined Team Building Camp organized by Enactus Uniten. Truth to be told, i have never joined any camp before. Never once. I am proud to say that my first camp was a success, alhamdulillah. I am happy that i got a great team leader, Abang Danial and also amazing team mates. To be honest, i am very proud of myself because none of the adventurous things that i did during the camp, i did before. I even got bite by “pacat” twice. Overall, I had a really great time and i am happy that i am an Enactus now. I hoped that i could be more active in this club and could generate something to them. I hoped i could accomplish whatever the alumni achieve. They are all good people that inspires me so much. My team leader even gave me many positive words of wisdom that I could relate in life. Truly, a blessings. I miss the camp already. I hope to join more of their activities, insya Allah.
Greetings (if there’s still people who reads this),
These past few months had been a busy phase for me because there’s so much going on. From classes, tutorials, submission of assignments until final exam preparation. I finally got the time to settle down and write. Writing isn’t an easy job for me nowadays due to lack of inspiration adds up with the laziness of mine to update this abandoned blog. Nevertheless, i am thankful to Allah for every single thing in life, be it good or bad. One thing i learn is that, He will never put you in situations you can’t handle. Thank you Allah, for all the tests that made me now a stronger human being, and closer to You.
Today will be one of the day to be remembered in 2013. The result of Semester 2 was out today. Alhamdulillah, my result was unexpected. Never in my expectation to get what i got, syukur. I was literally shaking to press the “Results” button and when i did, i screamed. I grabbed mum and hugged her, tears rolled down my cheek. Mum was blur but when i told her, she can’t express it in words but to cry. Thank you mama, for not just being my mum, but for being my best supporter, listener, best friend, soul mate and most importantly, my inspiration. I love you, always.
Not to mention, i can’t do it without my friends as well. Who are always there to support me throughout the whole journey. Who pushed me to the max, who never gets bored to teach me the same thing over and over again. Thank you :)
This is just a quick update. Will update soon (maybe not very soon). Till then. Goodnight.
“Nobody can ever understand you more than a mum can”
Thank you mama, for always listening to my craps whenever i needed someone to talk to. Thank you for offering me tissues and always trying your best to pull me back up with your words of courage and endless support. Mama, i’m sorry if i ever hurt you. I admit myself how bad i am in the past. But i’m trying to be better, always trying. You accepted all my flaws and never complains. You are the strongest person i’ve ever known, in my whole life. I never heard a word of “sigh” from you throughout my whole 18 years of life. You’re the only person whom can make me laugh instantly and i’m always excited to get home to your hugs, cooks, kisses and laughters. I am proud that i can literally tell you everything, and there’s no wall of gap between us that i don’t need to keep anything from you. You inherited so much of late Grandpa’s attitude. So much patience and courage, strong and high will power with determination. Thank you for carrying me in your womb for 9 months, and made me who i am today. You are not just my mum, you are my best friend, soul mate and inspiration. You will always be the person i look up to. Always. *can’t believe I wrote this while crying*
I love you mama.
P/s: Sorry for the random post but i just miss my mum.
I am now in my apartment’s bed and the day’s ending soon. Firstly i am terribly sorry as it’s gonna be a very emotional post. The date is 28th October 2012 and it gives me a big hit like a tornado when i realized what the date today was.
Today was, the day you were mine and i was yours. Throughout our love life, i was the happiest. You understands me the most. You made the funniest jokes. You lend me your shoulder when i was at my worst. You wipe my tears away whenever i cried. You catch me when i fall. You were not just my boyfriend, you were also my best friend. We share the same taste in almost everything. Foods and fashion. You changed me to the better person. I am forever grateful that Allah lend you to me, even for just a short while. The fact that i at least got to know you and feel your love, is good enough.
Before today ends, i would like to apologize to you if i ever do anything wrong and i would like to thank you for lending me your love. This date will forever be a special date to me, but at the same time haunt me with bittersweet memories. The pictures we captured together will be my company whenever i miss you, tissues are my best friend when i cried, the places we usually go left me so much memories and our love journey is definitely something i can’t get somewhere else. I would not trade it for anything else in this world. You’ll forever be missed, always.
I am here, officially saying that i was NEVER strong. Strong was never in my dictionary of life. I made myself strong enough to face everyone, when deep down inside, i am the weakest person in this world who cries like a baby that lost her mother.
I bet you can read and i know every person has a different definition and interpretation of what it says in the picture.
To me, it’s all about YOURSELF. The only reason i would want to update my blog after one month of not updating it was merely for self motivation.
I had Academic Study Skills class today and all i can say was, AMAZING. I couldn’t be more thankful that i got her as my lecturer. It is only the second week of Semester 2 and i’m already stressed out. But the class i had with my lecturer just now blown my stress away. She’s just so inspirational. Very young, pretty, confident and just so perfect. The class became more of like a motivational class. I truly am inspired. I really am looking forward for the next class. Thank you, Madam Nur Syafiqah binti Mohd Shukri for inspire me in life, generally. You’re the best :)
I’m going back this weekend after 2 weeks of not seeing my family. Cried so many times and i really just hate this homesick feeling. It’s endless. Wonder when these tears will stop falling? Maybe never.
